[box] Blog Post/Series Description: Dolores is my maternal grandmother living with Alzheimer’s Disease. A woman who helped shape me to be the man I am today. These posts highlight anecdotal stories about her life, her family and the legacy she will leave.[/box]
I am in my feelings today. I picked up the gorgeous puppy pictured below and made a pit stop to see Dolores (Nuni). She was still in bed. When I walked in, she was peacefully doing that snore, slight blow out of air from her mouth that I grew up hearing/witnessing. When I gently laid on her bed with Riley(the dog), she opened her eyes and just smiled. She was not nervous or startled. She looked at the dog and smiled again. It was if we just picked up from where we last left off.
It can be seen or felt as painful that she does not remember who last painted her nails or that someone now has to feed her (she loves Baptist Homes food by the way). I just laid with her for a short 45 minutes and she gave Reilly a treat (or 2). We didn’t talk much, just sat and I felt the energy.
I know, I know… it sounds all higher power-ish. However, I grew a lump in my throat both in the room and then in the car ride as I drove home. One day she will move onto a great scene than her nursing home coziness. It just hit me. Remember everyone, grief and loss is a part of life. Please check out this interview I did with Kevin Henry (introduced to me through the fearless Amy DeGurian, MSW). Being in the moment with those whose perspectives have changed towards end of life if truly cathartic.
PLEASE NOTE: Dolores is HEALTHY and WELL. I just had a vulnerable moment that I wanted to share (kind of like a live journal).
Other “Dolores” Anecdotes: